It has been hard at times to trust God. I like to be in control. By now I should have learned that control is an illusion and that I’ll never be in control. Sometimes we think we are in control only to end up seeing that the thing or person we believe we are controlling is really controlling us. It’s a weird and destructive cycle and I think it stems out of not trusting Him…the One who truly is in control.
I want to trust Him. Piper has said that the greatest danger is not trusting God. The enemy would love it if I didn’t trust God. I don’t want to walk in unbelief. A common prayer of mine is “I believe, help my unbelief.” I believe, but sometimes I have a real hard time believing. I’m thankful for the grace He gives us when we are weak and struggling. I’m thankful that He responds to faith even if it’s only as small as a mustard seed.
I want to trust Him when I don’t understand His ways. I want to trust Him when I’m scared and struggling. I want to trust Him when I miss my son. I want to trust Him with our future. I want to trust Him to continue the work that He has begun in me. I want to trust Him with having more children.
But trusting is not easy. It’s a battle at times. Im so glad that He remembers we are but dust. He knows we are weak and that we need Him. I would love your prayers for me in trusting Him. He is an everlasting rock and I want to rest in Him.
“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you because he TRUSTS in you. TRUST in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.” Isaiah 26:3-4