Today is Micaiah’s one month birthday. Jordan and I went out to his grave site on Saturday. We got some coffee and flowers and spent some time out there. We cried and talked, read scripture and prayed. It was hard going out there but really good for us to do. I was anxious before we went and kinda emotional. It just makes it all more real going out there. But I think going helps with the healing process. I’m glad we went and did that together.
That was Saturday. We went on Saturday because we were in Arlington for the weekend. But now we are back in Austin and today is his actual birthday. I went on a walk this morning and listened to a sermon. The sermon was about the story of Joseph and how Joseph believed that God was in control over all the bad that had happened in his life. Joseph suffered a lot and didn’t see the fruit of it until later. He eventually was able to see God use his suffering to save many from a famine. I’m really hoping God uses Micaiah’s life in a Joseph kind of way. That his life and the suffering we have been through will be used in big ways for good and for God’s glory.
We have already been encouraged by the many people who have told us how they have been blessed by Micaiah’s life. I hope that we never stop hearing people say that. And I hope that through Micaiah’s life God reveals Himself in new ways to people and that many come to know and love Him as their Father.
Jordan and I celebrated tonight with a wonderful piece of pumpkin pie from a bakery down the street. We got some candles and lit one in honor of our son. I’m sure that our pumpkin pie doesn’t even compare with all the wonderful food Micaiah has tasted in heaven this past month and I can’t wait to get up there and enjoy some of it with him.