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8 Months
And he told them a parable to the effect that they ought always to pray and not lose heart. -Luke 18:1 Today is Micaiah’s 8 month birthday. Eight months ago today we met our sweet son. I think about him often and still miss him so so much. It’s hard to believe it’s been 8 months now. It’s also hard to keep walking with this emptiness and deep longing for children. Yesterday I woke up and was pretty down about where we are with children. I was not doing very good and I didn’t have a very good attitude....
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Why we are Adopting
God gave us a passion for adoption even before we started trying to get pregnant. We started really talking about it a couple years after we were married, while we were still living in Austin and I was finishing school. Jordan was reading a book by Russel Moore called “Adopted for Life.” This book is mainly about our spiritual adoption but also talks about their adoption process. The more we understood what adoption meant and how we are adopted into God’s family, the more we wanted to bring a child into our home through adoption. It is an amazing...
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Being Fathered
I want to be Fathered. I want Him to really come and show me what it’s like to be fathered in all His goodness and perfection. I want to be free to really receive all that He is as my Father. My own appetites and desires are a hinderance to truly experiencing His satisfying Fathership in my life. I’m so tired of trying to find satisfaction in the things of this world. I long to be free from these things that weigh me down and to really enter into the joy of being Fathered by my creator and savior....
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Getting closer to meeting baby Tardy
Our home study is next week! We are getting closer to bringing our baby home and we would love your prayers for us as we prepare this week and as we complete our home study. We are really thankful things are moving along in this process. Our agency will have a couple people out to see us next Tuesday and Wednesday. Please be praying for them as they travel and for energy and good health. We are thankful that we can actually get a home study done in India! Thanks to all of you who have helped us to...
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Lessons from Micaiah
It’s been 6 months since Micaiah was born. God has taught us so much through the life of our son. Our friend Andy spoke at Micaiah’s service. In his message, Andy spoke of Micaiah being our teacher. As parents we are supposed to be the teachers of our children, but we don’t get to teach Micaiah things. There has been a switch in roles. Micaiah has become our teacher and we are learning so much through his life. In honor of Micaiah’s 6 month birthday, I’d like to share some of the things he has taught me and ways...
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Trust
It has been hard at times to trust God. I like to be in control. By now I should have learned that control is an illusion and that I’ll never be in control. Sometimes we think we are in control only to end up seeing that the thing or person we believe we are controlling is really controlling us. It’s a weird and destructive cycle and I think it stems out of not trusting Him…the One who truly is in control. I want to trust Him. Piper has said that the greatest danger is not trusting God. The enemy...
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Buying Land
We would like to invite you into a new journey with us, a journey that God is leading us on. But before I share, let me explain a little about why I titled this post “buying land.” A friend encouraged us with Jeremiah 32 after we had shared the news of this new journey we are on. It really resonated with me as I considered this difficult season we have been in and looked to restoration ahead. In this passage the people of God are about to be attacked and taken captive because of their sin against the Lord....
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Psalm 113
Psalm 113 Who is like the Lord our God? “Praise the LORD! Praise, O servants of the LORD, praise the name of the LORD! Blessed be the name of the LORD from this time forth and forevermore! From the rising of the sun to its setting, the name of the LORD is to be praise! The LORD is high above all nations, and his glory above the heavens! Who is like the LORD our God, who is seated on high, who looks far down on the heavens and the earth? He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap,...
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Loss upon loss
We aren’t sharing this to make you feel bad for us. In fact, I really don’t want people to feel bad for us. I want love and care and comfort but I don’t want you to feel bad. We are sharing this because we believe that God moves through prayer and we want you to be praying for us and for the future of our family. Thanks for walking with us in this difficult time. A little over a week ago we started miscarrying our third baby. Jordan and I found out we were pregnant again on December 20th....
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His Everlasting Arms
Listened to a sermon the other morning…it was actually the second time I had listened to it. Our pastor preached about Jesus calming the storm. Here are some points to remember and truths to fill my mind with: The storm is good because it reveals our lack of faith Jesus is the sender of the storm and is good for sending it to us because it reveals our lack of faith Without the storm our faith wouldn’t be strengthened We can trust Him to use storms for our good and to strengthen our faith Jesus has power to calm...
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Seeing His Face
One of the most exciting things about having a baby is finally getting to see their face…finally getting to meet them and hold them. Ultrasounds don’t do our babies justice…they are a whole lot cuter in person. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so thankful for ultrasounds and that I got to see Micaiah and spend time with him (on the big screen ) before he was born but they really can’t give you the full effect. We had more than one person tell us we should terminate Micaiah’s life. I can get real angry just thinking about that. I...
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Hopeful Christmas Video from John Piper
This sure got me (jordan). Thankful for Jesus, his life, his love and compassion for us and his love for Micaiah. And thankful for how Piper has helped me love Jesus more....
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Open Hands
“What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent; or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the Heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” -Luke 11:11-13 ”Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to...
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True Tragedy
I’ve been reading a book by Nancy Guthrie. She has lost two of her children and wrote a devotional to help others who walk through suffering. It has really helped me in this time and I’m grateful for it. Thank you Jenifer for recommending it to me. This is some of what I’ve been processing as I’ve been reading her book. Hope you enjoy. Luke 13:1-5 “There were some present at that very time who told him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices. And he answered them, “Do you think that these Galileans were...
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Happy 2 Month Birthday Micaiah
Today is Micaiah’s 2 month birthday. I love him and I miss him. We are now 2 months closer to seeing our son again. Oh what a joy that is. 2 Corinthians 1:3-7 “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly...
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